bubble gum and broken hearts

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 06:38:12 GMT

I am sick and tired of everyone else's standards. How is it apparent that mine are any lower or lesser? If I am successful and secure in myself, no one else's opinions should hold any merit in that arena.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 20:06:10 GMT

Another day in paradise....barf.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 04:42:34 GMT

Sigh. Oh to be in love again :)

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 06:02:50 GMT

I'm coping well with everything lately. Which is really kind of an outright lie. It's not terrible, really...it's all just a little overwhelming for the moment. But I'm alright. As usual, I will trudge up this hill and make it back to the valley. I know it. It's all a matter of cycles and time when I'm here so I am not going to stress it. Things always have a knack for working themselves out around here. Very thankfully.

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 15:42:57 GMT

I am so bored with packing and I haven't even started yet...really...
I think it has to do with letting go of this summer and going back to reality. Because most of the time reality sucks. I'm ready for the bombardment of school related issues, but I really have to steel myself on the ride down. I don't know what this semester has in store, but I am really hoping that it is a smooth ride with some chill people. Going to school with all girls is a mad house most of the time. But it's always interesting and surprising and I know this year that I am completely grounded and am not in need of too much reassurance. Oh, the process.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 16:46:55 GMT

Oh, and letters.
:)

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 16:46:01 GMT

It's been an incredibly beautiful summer. I'm really going to miss it.
I am also very ready to be heading back to school. There's always that total lack of interest, and then randomly something just clicks and you feel like you have to go back. I'm glad for it; it'll keep me busy until October. That's really all I'm asking for at this point :)

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 01:35:23 GMT

Life is gorgeous.

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 17:21:04 GMT

On a completely different note, over the past week and a half, I feel like I have found a second wind. I feel like I finally have a plan for the next few years, and I'm not just living thinking about things in 2 hour increments. I'm declared now, I have plans for going abroad, I am figuring out how to be able to graduate early. I feel alive, really, for the first time, and since spring break I haven't missed any classes. Which is a really big milestone for me, because usually I take sleep over going to class any chance I get. I am finally taking care of myself and using my time wisely. I got to bed early, I do my homework and reading when I have free time. I have put the rest of the semester on paper so I know what I have to do and when. I feel like I am helping myself. I don't take naps anymore. Which is HUGE for me. I used to fill up my free time sleeping. I am alert. I am awake. I am engaged. And I am feeling happy. Like I actually have a plan and am ready to face it and figure it out. This is good. This is great. I'm getting ready.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 06:50:16 GMT

Ugh.

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:08:47 GMT

I am so alone.

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 23:00:00 GMT

I'm a bum. I sleep so much and then do some homework, go to class, eat something, sit in my room and then do it all again. I have nothing to live for right now, it's just a pathetic repetition. No life right now. I swear. All I do when I have some time is read or watch movies. I just want to escape and get out of here. Fuck I am so bored with my life right now. Graaaaa!

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 18:52:18 GMT

I am still drunk from last night and really outta control.
AND I CAN TYPE SO GOOOOOOOD RIGHT NOWWWWWWW

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 08:39:14 GMT

I feel like I am going bananas about going abroad.
It was all solid Sevilla and then that study abroad counselor had to open her mouth about other programs that I should consider.
So now it is a continuous flow of AthensSevillaAthensSevillaCopenhagenAthensSevillaCopenhagen in the old gray matter.

I feel like Howard Dean. BYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 08:37:21 GMT

Every time, man. Every time.

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 08:32:03 GMT

Sometimes I feel like I open up, only to get it thrown back in my face.

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 05:49:43 GMT

It's been so long since I've written that I don't know what to write. I want to say everything that has happened over the past few months, but it's not that much, and it is at the same time. Nothing too drastic, just some moments. But it all built up so much that I don't care anymore. It just became so daunting to write and write that I gave up. But oh well. haha
Here I am now, and I guess I'll just go from here. It feels good to get that off the chest. :)

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 06:57:27 GMT

I love Aimey Leigh Harrison.
She's keeping this boat afloat right now.
All I need is some music, an open road, a car full of Grapie, Crunchwrap Supremes, Dinosaur Crunch and that girl and you've hit some serious Nirvana my friends.
Basically I am surviving on hope right now
and the anticipation of December break. Necessary!!!

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 04:39:37 GMT

There is something making my eyelids swell and be super red and disgusting. It is not pink eye. It is ruining my life, and if it is not gone by Thursday, I am going to cry.

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 21:27:40 GMT

I have some freaky eye thing. IT BETTER BE GONE BY THURSDAY. !

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 03:46:05 GMT

So.
I know. WHATEVER.

Thursday right after classes, Lyz and I are driving to Boston to see Robert Pattinson. OMG. I am going to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.!!.!.!!!!!
Danielle is coming too. We're meeting up at her house and are leaving super early in the morning to get in line and be a few of the 500 people that get to see him. OMG. OMG. OMG.

Like seriously, I know it's weird. And I knowwwwwww I shouldn't. But I can't help myself. It's not even the fact that he is mind blowingly attractive. It's nice. But it's his music. I find his music and his awkwardness and his intelligence so endearing. I am sure many other girls do too. But it's just nice to know that I will not be screaming like a freak when I see him. I will be internally, but I am going to try and play it cool, because I just get the feeling from watching interviews with him that he is so uncomfortable with his fame and people screaming his name. Poor guy. But really, I'll at least be civil! I'm rambling and babbling like a freak. I am really excited though!!!

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 07:29:12 GMT

I am a part of history right now. I just helped make history. This is going to be in the text books of our children and their children and their children. We can tell them exactly where we were and what we were doing when he was elected. At least, I can. I know that this is a singular victory and the presidency has yet to come and solidify our choice as a bringer of change, but I am still incredibly proud to have helped this country pass a milestone. But I can feel it, change is in the air.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 06:37:40 GMT

Over the weekend I read the whole Twilight series by Stephanie Meyer.
Oh. My. God.
I never thought I would be one of those girls, but I am. I am seriously deranged. I know it. But I honestly cannot help myself. And I cannot help but feel like my love life is eternally ruined. I will never in my life find someone that loves me even an OUNCE of what Edward and Bella feel for each other. Yeah, I said it. I know, I am ridiculous. But if you read them, you'd understand. I feel so silly. But it feels like being human is so useless and worthless. Stupid mortality.

Aaaaand Robert Pattinson has the most beautiful voice in the world. Thus furthering my irrevocable and irrational obsession with him. Oh god, just strike me down now.

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 14:14:02 GMT

So I am driving back in a little while. I don't really want to go, but my urge to not be a bum and suck up my parents money is more than the urge to stay here and feel safe and comforted. I hate this moment. Like I was dreading Sunday coming the whole time I was home, and now it is here and now I have to go back. I mean, I should just hold on because Thanksgiving is right around the corner so I should be ok until then. But really. I miss it here a lot more than I thought I would. Sigh. I just have to suck it up and get this semester done, and then get through the next one and the next one and so on and so forth until I am done and can figure out what the fuck I am doing with my life. UGH. We'll see how this all pans out.
But fo reals. I miss Maine already. :(

Sat, 01 Nov 2008 22:53:17 GMT

Also: I am shitting my pants for this election to be over. Like, you have no idea how many ants are in my pants right now about this. GAH